I, the Fabulous Mz Berlin,  was about to head out the door this morning when my dad called. We ended up talking for two hours about the election and what it meant on a personal, national and global level. I rarely get to chat politics with anyone, and my dad keeps up with me and occasionally blows me away with his predictions and insights.
He talked about being in school when desegregation began, and how even though it was mandated, the students kept segregating themselves. I told him that it was exactly the same (a self-segregated population) when I attended that very same high school, when I walked those very same halls and ate in that lunch room. We both wondered if the lunch room there was different this week.
Having a mulit-racial president is exciting on so many levels.
I just hope that he keeps that “hope” momentum through the tough times ahead.
I’d hate to see this historic moment and presidency fucked up by the shitty “in” box he’s getting. And the fact that our nation has a long way to go before we will really see the Change that he’s talked about during this campaign. I hope that the human condition of impatience doesn’t get in the way of our long term success as a nation.
Then we talked about the financial crisis, which is one of our favorite subjects to agree upon loudly together.
Then we talked about China and Russia and Africa and all of the different challenges that the president elect will face. (I didn’t mention the middle east in that list, because he and I have talked that subject to death.)
A few more phone calls, set up a few shoots, then I was off to AIM and the bank. Most of my work this week has been payroll based, so I’m waiting for my checks to come in.
Paid my bills.
Off to the dr in about 1/2 an hour, then hopefully I’ll be going to see a movie tonight. Word from TMS is that it’s really busy at his office, so we’ll see. If not, Netflix delivered “River’s Edge” (with Crispin Glover!!), “Life in the Undergrowth” (5 freakin’ hours!!) and “Leatherheads.”  I hate George Clooney in everything except for “The Perfect Storm” and that had nothing to do with him. I just thought the story was compelling. I’m not sure why I listed that.
Shooting with Derrick Pierce again for Fucked and Bound (fuckedandbound.com) was AWESOME. I was on the sassier side of sassy, and was certainly put into check. Haha!! I wore some custom shoes and my prettiest red dress. I love working at The Factory.
K.
Democracy Now podcast, then Dr.

This shoot was a good one! I (The Fabulous Mz Berlin) make Chad Rock crawl around dragging a bowling ball from his balls! Chad and I had great chemistry and he really took to the CBT well. Then, because he came without permission, I burned the tip of his cock with cigarette ash. And that’s just the preview reel. Twisted Factory has really given me free rein to work out the scenes as I want (with Chanta’s ok of course) and this Captive Male scene is one of my favorite. The pegging alone is worth the price of admission! Take a look, and buy my porn!

*canned applause here*

Whew!! Just spent two days working with Brazzers. Day one was Regan Reese and Jordan Ashe and day two was Mark Woods. Both scenes were on the sillier side of things, but I got to dress up in some over the top outfits and play fun characters. The crew was really nice and, overall, it was a pretty chill two days. It was colder in Vegas than I was expecting, even though I’d been only a few days before.

TMS stayed over last night. He was here when I got home from the airport, catching up on Dexter. I have the first couple of seasons from iTunes. They haven’t released the 3rd season yet, so I’ve been watching it 2nd hand, grainy and uploaded to a site prone to pop up windows. There are worse problems to have. He’s gone off to play football and to prep for his film tomorrow. He’s directing a short and they have to do a day of pick ups.

and onto the porno…

(Go to my dirty bondage blog for direct linkage. I’m lazy.)

I’m this weeks update everywhere you want to be on the kinky side of the web. You can see my highly anticipated (at least by me) update with Mark Davis on Sex and Submission (sexandsubmission.com) in which I’m not only encased in my own 20.5″ corset but also in the custom steel that TMS had made for me. =). Marty pulled out all the stops and in addition to high heels, stockings, more metal bondage, stress positions, ballet boots and a partial suspension, I also squirt. Many have tried. Many have failed. Mark wins.

You can see my second appearance on FuckedAndBound with Derrick Pierce, also highly anticipated (also at least by myself). (I’m currently also petitioning for a round 2 with this fine gentleman.) Wrapped in Chanta’s tightest bondage, I’m stripped of my expensive lingerie and high heels. My red lipstick fades and my eyeliner runs as Derrick has fun with his willing victim. I’m put through my paces with my elbows together, douple nipple clamps, the cat-o-nine, an immobilizing tie and a painful suspension before being put away at The Factory in breast bondage and a tight ball gag.

Until I’m needed to beat bitches, bitches like Charley Chase. Dressed to kill, I teach her all about customer service utlizing a painful graduated suspension, an evil elbows together tie engineered by Chanta, positive reinforcement with lots of forced orgasms and exactly 120 face slaps. Theres a killer pile driver scene and Charley takes quite the ass beating. She also squirted, but I was not the first to ever make her do that. And she was a good girl. She stayed away from my shoes. =)

K.
Back to my Sunday.
I have Monday to worry about.
As Always
TFFMB

Photography By Jim Martin (he's in my blogroll!)

My short term memory sucks.
I am so tired.
And I have a long day tomorrow.
And so much to say.
Not sure this is going to work out so well.
Haha.
My shoots last week were really good. I shot with Chad Rock and Wild Bill. Chad Rock and I had good chemistry and I hope to work with him again. I always think the second time is better. I think that I wasn’t sensual enough for Wild Bill I just don’t think I’m wired for sensual. I dunno.  I directed both shoots and did the rigging. Neither subject escaped. I did learn that I’m using rope lengths that are too long, and that it’s been part of my issue.
I feel much more confident now.
Then there was the Mark Davis shoot. I know I’ve already talked about Mark Davis and I’m toeing the line on over kill,  but this -seriously- is the best b/g shoot I’ve ever done. At least I believe it will be. We’ll find out once it’s been edited and published, but it was balls to the wall from start to finish. I had a blast. See!! My second shoots are always the best!
Thursday I dominated Charley Chase and PA’d on set. I’ve been doing more and more of that lately. Learning to rig, watching the lighting set up. Being aware of pacing. Charley Chase was so fucking hot. And she did some tough bondage and face slapping!! Chanta’s bitch slapped me so much that I can’t help but do it to others.
Friday I rented a car.
(My head gasket and all sorts of stuff blew to the tune of 2300.)
Then I had an interview with Belladonna. She is soooo beautiful. The interview was really casual and I chatted about what I liked about sex and bdsm and all that, then I got naked. Unfortunately, Belladonna did not. But I hope she has me back. She has a really amazing energy that would add so much to a scene or a set.
This past Tuesday I worked with Ramone for Reality Kings. He was hot. I am such a sucker for accents. We had to hold back a lot (It was scripted) but still had a lot of fun. The stills seem to be the hardest part of shooting vanilla porn.
Today I spent all day with Mark Spiegler, meeting directors and talent and just saying “hello” to everyone. I got naked quite a bit, and my boobs got grabbed a lot. I always giggle and blush, but secretly I love the attention.
So, that’s that.
Tonight I went to a small play party in the hills and gave a lovely submissive boy the birthday caning of a lifetime. Amazing connection. His ass is annihilated, but it was a 2 hour scene that led up to a 4 cane finale. Beautiful. He loved it. He wants me to stick needles in him next time. I hope his mistress allows it!!
Tomorrow
(today, actually)
I have a fem domme type shoot that should be fun. Along with two solo scenes. I’ve only done one vanilla solo scene for Score. I hope that I do a good job.
Oh. I have health insurance. Very excited about that.
And I found an awesome coat rack (hot pink!!) at Urban Outfitters.
And I updated my clip store. With me, Ashley Renee, and latex.
Yum.
Later, gators-
TVVTFFMB

Femdom fatale. That’s me, the Fabulous Mz Berlin. I’m fucking Daac Ramsey in the ass with my strap-on, while Robyn Truelove feeds him her cock, straight from his slut ass. Captive Male gives me the freedom to really play and innovate, and I think that’s what makes Captive Male extra awesome. Robyn, Daac, and I had fun doing this, because Chanta, while overlooking the affair, lets the scene unfold organically. Plus… who doesn’t like pegging a subbie boy? Femdom threesomes are pretty rare, and this one is fucking hot, so BUY MY PORN. I made it for you!

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin has the pleasure of pegging the ass of Ryan Knox, when I was a femdom on Captive Male (captivemale.com). Captive Male is another one of Chanta’s sites, so of course I was delighted. The backstory is simply this. I am the school teacher, and Ryan is a wiseass punk who can’t keep his mouth shut. Ordinarily it is I who has the issues with verbosity (but not fabulocity), but in this case the tables were turned, and thus… it is Ryan’s ass that gets fucked. I think I did a good job on the CBT and rigging, and I know I has a great time, and I hope to work with/for/under (wink) Chanta again soon. So, loyal readers… BUY MY PORN! I made it for you. Join Captive Male and see me and other fetish luminaries top sissybois left and right.

ohmygawd you have to see what I (Mz Berlin) did to Audrey Hollander’s ass, on Chanta’s Bitches. First of all I caned her perfect ass eighty (that’s 8-0 ) times, and the bitch had to count it out for me. Then I started stretching our her ass, because Audrey Hollander is known for her ass, and what an anal slut she is. I got both my hands, and then my fucking foot into her slutty little ass. I tell you, no one is kinkier than a redhead. I finished by doing something that Chanta did to me once. It involves rope, Audrey Hollander, me, and a cinderblock. You have to join Chanta’s Bitches for the rest, but I will tell you it made Audrey use her safeword. I am not only fabulous, I am one bad motherfucker. Buy my porn! I made it for you! Chanta says you have to!

Since I used a picture from this shoot already today, I thought I’d include the whole enchilada. This is a boy/girl bdsm shoot I did for my friend Chanta’s site, Fucked and Bound. In it I am submissive to TJ Cummings, who’s quite skilled with the rope (shibari) and dom duties. It’s pretty self explanatory. I get tied up, knocked around, and turned into a submissive little slut. Me? Submissive? It’s one of my many facets. I got moves you’ve never seen, baby. ;-) Buy my porn. if you like hard, rope slut bondage with the hottest fetish models on the market, then get Fucked and Bound.

xo,

B

Photo by Chanta Rose, Desmask Latex Corset, pulled from Corset and Collar.

So, today I’m getting ready for tomorrow. Cleaning all of my lingerie, organizing it all into bins and making sure I have my hot rollers.
I’m busy procrastinating right now. I’ve found this awesome website called Hulu. They have movies and TV shows. It’s been great. I’m watching an episode of 30 Days. It’s awesome. I’m watching the straight midwestern guy who moved to the Castro neighborhood in SF. He’s totally homophobic and unaware of his asshole-ism. We’ll see if that changes.
He’s really bold. He’s already hopping into the marriage issue on his first night there.
My new blog is coming along well. I need to get some banners made and post links. It’s basically my journal here with other stuff I find interesting on the web that’s kink related.
They’re at the gym now.
He’s basing all of his takes on the gay issue on The Bible. They’re at “gay church” now.
I love Morgan Spurlock.
K.
I’m going to go focus on my procrastination.
Here is a LOL Cat for you.
You can get a LOL Cat widget on your desktop that pipes them right into your computer. Just go to www.icanhascheezburger.com.

It’s a wonderful night for a Moondance.

I fucking love The Counting Crows. I fucking love Adam Duritz. He is one of the great songwriters of the past century. He’s up there with Bob Dylan in terms of eloquence. Not better, though.
I’ve switched to soy milk. I don’t have stomachaches anymore. I thought that I had them because I was just a nervous person. Now I’m just a less cranky one.
TMS and I are leaving a bit later than we were going to, which I’m thankful for. It’s given me more time to procrastinate.
My father is also an excellent procrastinator. We laugh about it. We both procrastinate and like to annoy cats. Varla is constantly on edge, so she is an easy target. My dad is doing OK with the chemo treatments. He’s only lost 8 pounds in 6 months, but he was already really tiny. He only weighed about 140 or so in December, and that was after gaining some weight in anticipation of the treatment. He is in good spirits and is watching a lot of COPS and serial killer documentaries on his TiVo.  He’s a little isolated, because Liz is at work 5 days a week, but they eat dinner together and go to the pool in the evenings. I’m so happy that they got married. They really have a good vibe and seem really happy to have the other person around. I’ve sent him a couple of movies and they watch them together and give me a report, despite the subtitles. Dad devotes a lot of time to the cats. Roscoe P. Coletrain, Squeaky Fromme and One Eyed Jack. (Jack really does only have one eye.) Dad and I used to have a three legged cat named Romy.

I won’t be available by phone or email or anything until Sunday.

Just so you know.

I’m nervous/excited about next week. Chanta and I are going to beat up Audrey Hollander, on Chanta’s Bitches. Keep posted, it will rock.
I think she’s hot. And she’s got a reputation. She’s been voted “dirtiest girl in porn” and is an AVN winner and so on and so forth. And she is known for having special talents involving her behind and large objects. I think we may see some Amber Rayne level ass action. I need to call her. She called last week and I was in FL and the last time we saw each other it was on the steps at The Armory, in passing. I did get to smooch her, though.
So, that’s the story with Audrey. I don’t know what our faithful ringleader, Chanta, has in mind, but I know that I’m usually brought in when there’s something extreme to be done.
I’m also getting to top Jennifer Dark. Don’t know anything about her. She’s been on Ultimate Surrender. That’s it.
Then Derrick Pierce is taking me for a spin. This will be my 6th b/g shoot. I’m nervous, as usual. But I know that I’ll be tied in awesome rope bondage and all of the guys I’ve met so far (except for Kurt Lockwood, whose shoot was cancelled) have been so awesome. I’m sure that Derrick will be great.
(Speaking of b/g, I need to start petitioning for another go-round with Mark Davis. I wonder if the Kink booking office or the Sex and Submission director is adverse to chocolate chip cookie bribes.)
I’m also trying to talk Chanta into finding me someone that can interrogate me in a foreign language. Doesn’t that sound hot?
So, that’s what’s on my mind.
Well, was on my mind.
I need to start thinking remote cabins by the lake, laundry and packing for the weekend and next week.
Aaackk!!
I just looked at the calendar. I’m home for 3 days, then I drive out to the desert for the Lori Mann/Alan Amato workshop!!
Aaaacckk!!
I need to get my shit together.
L8TR
B.

Saw Indiana Jones and the fucking aliens tonight. Bad decision. Horrible movie. It hurt my face. The script was painful.
Tomorrow is my shoot with Princess Donna. My first movie. I hope y’all (and the community at large) like it. At any rate, it should be tons of fun. I got to talk to Donna about it a bit at The Armory this week. She was very enthusiastic and I was a lot flirty. I encouraged her to be as wicked as she wanted and I hope she makes me regret it. =)
I had some talent drop out at the last minute, which I’m bummed about. Luckily (and she’s done this before, ’cause she’s awesome and one of my go-to gals) January Seraph stepped in and will be joining the cast. I’ve gotten solid confirmations from everyone else and am really excited.
This week went by far too fast. Tuesday I shot for Hogtied. It was fun. I was a weenie. Matt made me tell everyone that I was a weenie. He made me squirm and squeal and whine. Of course, I was punished for it. It was lovely and I have the marks to prove it. It also exhausted all of my reserves. Wednesday was a shoot for Chanta. I worked with Beverly Hills, who -despite her name- was an awesome model and lots of fun. I certainly feel that I didn’t give her a run for her money. I won’t be booking a bondage shoot then a domme shoot again if I can help it. Thursday I guested on TTOO. I worked with people I hadn’t worked with before, which I found challenging and fun. Everyone was in a very good mood on set and we laughed quite a bit. I got to wear a patent burgundy corset, which was fun.
The past year has brought a lot of change in my life. I’ve been on the mainland, for one thing. Since my sabbatical, I’ve gotten serious about my career, have gotten my website up, worked on my clip store, amassed content for both and worked on my wardrobe. In my personal life I’ve had the opportunity to learn so much about myself and what does and doesn’t work for me. I’m a much better boundary setter and communicator. I think, anyway.
Blah Blah Blah.
But enough about me.
What do YOU think about me?
Haha.
TFFMB