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I know, I know. I have really sucked at blogging for the past couple of months. I suppose that I've been busy living my life off line. Crazy, eh? Life away from the interwebs. Whodathunkit?
In Big, Huge, Gigantic News- I've quit smoking. Seriously. For Real. Done. I put out my last cigarette at the beginning of the month, the beginning of the decade, the beginning of the year and it's stayed that way. I've put on a few pounds, but nothing that a few weeks of cardio and yoga can't remedy. And I really don't care. I feel so much better. Occasionally I feel like I've forgotten something, and I feel flashes of baseless annoyance every once in a while that I can only equate to the dying nicotine monster inside of me, but it's not really that bad. The Mad Scientist has been endlessly patient, as have my friends. Varla, not so much, but that was expected. =^)
The holidays were awesome in general and overly emotional occasionally. TMS and I saw a lot of movies, ate too much chocolate and drank too much eggnog. (Broguiere's egg nog is the best in the whole wide world, forever and ever, Amen. If you live in SoCal, git you some next fall.) I was never a huge fan of the stuff until we found the aforementioned Broguiere's. It's insane. ICP insane. Trips to Gelsons at 10pm on a whim insane. But rather tasty insanity. TMS and I got a Christmas tree and decorated it all in silver. Santa brought Varla a cat tree. She ignored it for a week or so and has been begrudgingly started sitting and napping on it recently. If you engage her in anyway while she's interacting with the tree she will immediately disengage from her tree related activity, which I find funny. She does not.
So, I've been getting at least an email a day for the entirety of the Year So Far asking me "What's Up?" I'm flattered that so many people care whether I've quit the adult industry, plan on doing fetish any more, am only doing g/g, or bondage or what have you, and I haven't been all that good at responding because I haven't been completely sure on what to say. My life has been in a bit of flux for the past couple of months on both a personal and professional level. I've thoroughly enjoyed being in front of the camera for the past five years and wouldn't give up those experiences for the world. I've gotten to play with world class talent, get tied up by the best in the business, cavorted with the loveliest ladies and the most dashing gentlemen, lived out truly outrageous fantasies and traveled more than I ever dreamed possible, but I'm moving into a new chapter. A chapter that has monogamy as a subplot. I still want to do bondage and latex and corset photos, but more in a way that documents my personal fetishes than as me as a product. I think that I made an awesome product, but I'd rather be a possession now.
I got into the bondage/fetish/adult industry to live out my dream of being in a full time D/s relationship for a few moments at a time on camera and I currently have the opportunity to live it out in real time, in real life. That's pretty rad! I hope that you're happy for me.
So, what the hell am I going to do now that I'm not running around naked and engaging in improper behavior with other naked people? I kind of like the idea of being mostly anonymous. I was a waitress in college and enjoyed the simplicity and hectic nature of waiting tables. It's also a job that you can truly leave "at the office", instead of bringing your work problems home, so I've been looking for a part time gig as a server. The economy is shot to shit, and I haven't found anyone that's hiring as of yet, but the right opportunity will present itself at the right time. It's also flexible enough to allow me to attend fetish events and to travel as opportunities for such present themselves. I'll also be starting school this summer or fall, depending on circumstances. I was planning on attending this semester, but the universe decided against that, so it got pushed forward.
Wow. The last three paragraphs were a lot harder for me to write than I expected. I've put it off because I wasn't sure how to verbalize what was "Up" and I hope I've done an OK job. I plan on verbalizing a lot more right here on my blog and hope that you'll stay tuned. Now that I've gotten that out of the way I feel a lot better. My website will still be going up, and I still have lots of exclusive content to post to it, in case you were wondering.
This particular blog entry took a lot longer than I expected and I have chores to do and a cat to annoy, so I'll be back tomorrow. Thanks for reading!
xoxo
Mz
I know, I know. I have really sucked at blogging for the past couple of months. I suppose that I've been busy living my life off line. Crazy, eh? Life away from the interwebs. Whodathunkit?
In Big, Huge, Gigantic News- I've quit smoking. Seriously. For Real. Done. I put out my last cigarette at the beginning of the month, the beginning of the decade, the beginning of the year and it's stayed that way. I've put on a few pounds, but nothing that a few weeks of cardio and yoga can't remedy. And I really don't care. I feel so much better. Occasionally I feel like I've forgotten something, and I feel flashes of baseless annoyance every once in a while that I can only equate to the dying nicotine monster inside of me, but it's not really that bad. The Mad Scientist has been endlessly patient, as have my friends. Varla, not so much, but that was expected. =^)
The holidays were awesome in general and overly emotional occasionally. TMS and I saw a lot of movies, ate too much chocolate and drank too much eggnog. (Broguiere's egg nog is the best in the whole wide world, forever and ever, Amen. If you live in SoCal, git you some next fall.) I was never a huge fan of the stuff until we found the aforementioned Broguiere's. It's insane. ICP insane. Trips to Gelsons at 10pm on a whim insane. But rather tasty insanity. TMS and I got a Christmas tree and decorated it all in silver. Santa brought Varla a cat tree. She ignored it for a week or so and has been begrudgingly started sitting and napping on it recently. If you engage her in anyway while she's interacting with the tree she will immediately disengage from her tree related activity, which I find funny. She does not.
So, I've been getting at least an email a day for the entirety of the Year So Far asking me "What's Up?" I'm flattered that so many people care whether I've quit the adult industry, plan on doing fetish any more, am only doing g/g, or bondage or what have you, and I haven't been all that good at responding because I haven't been completely sure on what to say. My life has been in a bit of flux for the past couple of months on both a personal and professional level. I've thoroughly enjoyed being in front of the camera for the past five years and wouldn't give up those experiences for the world. I've gotten to play with world class talent, get tied up by the best in the business, cavorted with the loveliest ladies and the most dashing gentlemen, lived out truly outrageous fantasies and traveled more than I ever dreamed possible, but I'm moving into a new chapter. A chapter that has monogamy as a subplot. I still want to do bondage and latex and corset photos, but more in a way that documents my personal fetishes than as me as a product. I think that I made an awesome product, but I'd rather be a possession now.
I got into the bondage/fetish/adult industry to live out my dream of being in a full time D/s relationship for a few moments at a time on camera and I currently have the opportunity to live it out in real time, in real life. That's pretty rad! I hope that you're happy for me.
So, what the hell am I going to do now that I'm not running around naked and engaging in improper behavior with other naked people? I kind of like the idea of being mostly anonymous. I was a waitress in college and enjoyed the simplicity and hectic nature of waiting tables. It's also a job that you can truly leave "at the office", instead of bringing your work problems home, so I've been looking for a part time gig as a server. The economy is shot to shit, and I haven't found anyone that's hiring as of yet, but the right opportunity will present itself at the right time. It's also flexible enough to allow me to attend fetish events and to travel as opportunities for such present themselves. I'll also be starting school this summer or fall, depending on circumstances. I was planning on attending this semester, but the universe decided against that, so it got pushed forward.
Wow. The last three paragraphs were a lot harder for me to write than I expected. I've put it off because I wasn't sure how to verbalize what was "Up" and I hope I've done an OK job. I plan on verbalizing a lot more right here on my blog and hope that you'll stay tuned. Now that I've gotten that out of the way I feel a lot better. My website will still be going up, and I still have lots of exclusive content to post to it, in case you were wondering.
This particular blog entry took a lot longer than I expected and I have chores to do and a cat to annoy, so I'll be back tomorrow. Thanks for reading!
xoxo
Mz
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